You got me

Today is 29 Nov, 2005. It has been 6 month for me to figure out what I wanna do and how to live in this era. Well today, one of my friend just lend me a book " THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE", I heard this book is very good. Well yeah, I used to lose my spirit and soul. It ain’t easy to point out where we can find our new spirit you know. Most of my friend see me as the strong person but I don’t think I am that strong you know. Actually sometimes I pretend to be strong because I dont want my friend worry about me. Anyway, life is goes on so if we are stuck up in the same spot we will be left behind right? Now, I am so happy come back from whistler even though I got a lot of bruises and all of the parts in my body are sore.
Jeezzz most of my friends, Korean, japanese or Eropian they are very expert in skiing and snowboarding, yeah I got fell behind but it is Ok since this is the first time for me to snowboard.
GOsh, I hope I can speak japanese and korean and chinese too so I can understand what they talk about.  After I finish read the book I will tell about the content of the book. Anyway, I dont know who often read my blog, I dont expect my friend to read my blog since I write the blog I only know two of my friends who read my blog. Now, I already choose to live differently and always take care something/someone which are so essential for me. Ready to go through to NEW ERA :  BETWEEN PAST AND FUTURE. And one more thing I really need to appreciate all of my friends. People thought that I have a lot of friends maybe it is true but I dont have many good friends, best friends and special friends. Reach NEW ERA with NEW PURPOSE, VIGOROUSITY, ATTITUDE and ENCOURAGEMENT.
December is coming I hope all of my friends will have a good time at that time.
Cheers,

Aloha y’all,
Thanksgiving is coming out, I hope you guys will have a great thanksgiving this year and don’t forget to leave me a turkey too.
Anyway, I am going to WHISTLER this week, it is a very famous SKI resort in CANADA.I am so nervous since I gotta lead 36 people for this trip. Well the good thing is that I got the discount for the trip since I am the co-leader for the trip.
Hopefully, there is nothing bad happen in the trip.
Well anywyay, I will continue to write something later on.
Adios,

The post below is written by one of my friends.

Tidak ada yang terlambat dalam mencintai
seseorang…
Saat kau benar-benar mencintai seseorang …
Walau kau terlambat menyadari namun itu
bukan akhir dari cerita cintamu..
karena, saat kau mulai menutup diri, dan
MENYERAH berarti barulah kau TERLAMBAT…
dan menjadi orang yang tak perlu lagi
diperhitungkan…!!

Merelakan..Melepaskan??

Kedua hal yang MENGHARUKAN saat-saat kau
mencintainya dengan segenap hatimu…
Kau benar- benar menawarkan perasaan
cintamu..
Hingga kau RELA MELEPASKANNYA jika ia
memang akan bahagia..
Seperti halnya..Lebih baik melihat orang kau
cintai TAK LAGI BERSAMA MU, dibanding kau
bersamanya dan membuatnya jenuh…
dan tak bahagia berada di sampingmu…

Saat kau menyadari semua tidaklah kejam
untukmu..Namun kau beruntung dapat
menyadari perasaannya…

Menyedihkan..??

Ya..menyedihkan itu tepat untukmu yang
menderita dalam percintaan..
Saat cintamu tak BERBALAS..atau orang kau
cintai telah BERKHIANAT…
Tapi kau bukan orang yang paling
menyedihkan…
Namun, Sadarilah..dia yang melukaimu lebih
menyedihkan lagi darimu…
Karna tanpa ia sadari…
ia MENYIA-NYIAKAN Mu yang telah sangat
mencintainya…

Salah Mencintai..??

Hanya dengan mencintai kau melihat dirinya
sangat sempurna..
Namun mencintai bukan suatu kebutuhan tapi
suatu PILIHAN..
Saat kau menganggap cinta itu bagai
KEBUTUHAN..!!
kau TAK AKAN RELA MELEPASKANNYA…
Kau hanya boleh MENYADARI DIA ADALAH
PILIHAN MU…
BUKAN SUATU KEBUTUHAN yang harus
memenuhi hidupmu…
Maka kau akan SAKIT dan TAK RELA bila kau
KEHILANGANNYA…

Cinta itu tidak selalu indah..
Seindah dongeng cinderella berakhir bahagia..
Atau romeo en juliet dgn kisahnya yang abadi.
..
Namun, kau bisa mencoba nya…
Namun saat kau tak berhasil menciptakan
cerita2 indah…
Kau hanya bisa MERELAKAN NYA…
Saat yang tepat kau akan temukan seseorang
yang lebih baik dan mempesona…
Karena dibalik semuanya CINTA TAK HARUS
MEMILIKI…
MAKA DENGAN SEKEDAR MENGAGUMINYA
SUDAH CUKUP UNTUK MU…

Hargai lah tiap kebersamaan yang dulu pernah
terjalin, ingatlah keindahan cinta itu saat
bersamamu kalau sudah pergi kamu akan
menyadari bahwa kamu kehilangan dia untuk
selamanya..

"If you love something…let it go, if it comes
back to you it was truly meant to be."

Goshhhh I am so hungry now, I just had dim sum with my friends 4 hours ago but I feel hungry right now LOL.
YEah, well I gotta study hard to the math class that I took since last time I took the math class two years ago. Well if you see people driving, you can see that some of them drive slowly and some of them drive very fast. It is like doing thing in this world too you know. Some people try hard to move very fast without looking the past, some people move slowly, learning something from the past but if they already understand the true meaning of it, they can be a better person in the future. Well in this life, we have a lot of thing to learn, learn learn and learn…..

Learn to reach the future, learn to make people happy, learn to love someone without granted, learn to forgive and forget, learn to be a better person, learn to fill this life with joy and laugh, yeah so many thing we have to learn right.

Sometimes, some people just wondering too if there is true love in this world, yeah we really want to find the mystery of true love. Well sometimes we can not expect to get answer from all of the question we had since we know that not all of the question has exact answer, just let it flow and let it be.
Well next week I am going to vancouver, hehehe. I should go there before I can not leave USA.
SOmetimes I just think why I make a blog, hahaha….well I knew that some of my american asian friends that they have xanga.
Probably because sometimes I don’t know how to express my mind and I assume that not many people read the blog or care about it hehehe.

YEah I think I have to stop writing, I gotta study for my exam and I need to eat to boost up my energy. Oh, yeah I used to think that I am NOTHING in this world but well I think we have to believe that we are ANYTHING for this world, right? ^^