You got me

Tell me someone, tell me
What is this love about
Help me someone, help me
Figure these feelings out
Strange the way you love me
I’m high on the mystery
My heart is miles above me
Like your love is setting me free

If I had wings I’d fly
If I could find a way
Give me the faith I’ll try
No, no matter what it takes
I long to be by your side
To show You my heart is true
If I had wings, oh, I would fly to You

Tell me, won’t you tell me
What is it gonna take
Help me, can’t You help me
Take my heart for heaven’s sake
I see the way you do me
In spite of the things I’ve done
My heart is saying to me
Look at what your love has begun

I won’t give up
On what I believe
When I could not reach heaven
Heaven came to me

How I long to be there beside you
Gimme half a chance and I would try to
If I could, you know that I would
I would fly to you

Finally I finished my school in university of washington for chemical engineering. But now sometimes I missed the time I went to class, did the homework, studied for the final exam etc. Well, Now I have to find a real job for sure hehehe….working for someone and after you learn working for people then in the future people can work for you. Keep focus with strong belief.
Even though I am not sure if I can get the job I really want in here but I believe I will get a job somewhere in this world. Also, I believe that we are gonna meet our soulmate somewhere in this world, we never know maybe in Malaysia hehehe or somewhere else but not Iceland for sure since I am a warm blooded I don’t think I can live in very cold place.Anyway I miss the best event for this year, for Taiwanese Student Association for Semi formal Hound award….too bad anyway can’t see to see NFL tommorow.Anyway I just want to thank to all of my friends, Ono, Daniel,Dodo, Fina,Yumiko, Citra,David (including the gank in the house, love you all), Harie,tono,tana, eiko,miki, Jin,Hiroki, Alan,Amok,Evie etc….all of you even who read this message since you are all my friends. And special thanks to someone out there in Melayu Island that help and support me, give me back my confident, make me believe to something that I don’t want to believe anymore but you really make me believe it  hehehe.

All right guys let’s do the cheers for our future………..I want to see y’all get success.

Gotta change my answering machine Now that im alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Cant come to the phone
And I know it makes no sence
Cuz you walked out the door
But its the only way i hear your voice anymore
its ridiculous
Its been 7 months
And for some reason i just
cant get over us
And im stronger then this
enough is enough
No more walkin round
With my head down
Im so over being blue
Cryin over you

And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender i have
Thats marked 25 Oct Because since theres no more you
Theres no more anniversary
Im so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

Thats the reason im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Leave me alone
Stupid love songs
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Damn baby

I just don’t understand where we went wrong

I gave you my heart

I gave you my soul

I gave you

As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first,

It was about 8 years ago

Donâ??t act like you don’t know.

We were sitting at home in your momma’s living room,

Cause, (We couldn’t be alone)

See your mamma knew I was something else, she knew how I felt.

Back then we were in school,

And that sure thing didn’t excuse,

Growing up I was a fool,

And in came up missin’ you

Listen and don’t trip,

Think I need a bottle with a genie in it.

Here’s my wish list,

(First one), I would create a heart changing love

(Second one), I’ll take your lift and lead on

(Third one), but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause,

I’ll, be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends

Lovin’ never end,

It would just begin.

If I had one wish, you would be my boo,

Promise to love you,

Trust me I’ll trust you.

If I had one wish, we would run away,

Making love all day,

Have us a baby.

If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life,

Can you be my wife?

Make it right this time.

And tell me is this the only way I,

Can get you right back in.

Sold his soul, searching I’ll go,

Then I can have you for sure.

Then you’ll be loving me,

Holding me,

Kissing me.

So girl don’t tell me what,

I’m feeling is make believe.

I swear if I lose,

A second chance with you,

I wouldn’t know what to do,

I’d probably check myself in,

To come kind of clinic,

I couldn’t be alone,

Cause without you I’m sick

Here’s my wish list

(First one), I would create a heart changing love

(Second one), I’ll take your lift and lead on

(Third one), but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause,

I’ll, be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends (we’d be best friends)

Lovin’ never end, (never end)

It would just begin. (Starting here right now)

If I had one wish, you would be my boo,

Promise to love you, (promise to love)

Trust me I’ll trust you. (I trust you)

If I had one wish, we would run away, (yes we would)

Making love all day, (it would feel so good)

Have us a baby.

If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life, (oh yeah)

Can you be my wife?

Make it right this time.

If I had one wish

I don’t even know

How we an did up on this road,

And even though we are grown,

Girl I just want you to know

GOsh, I just cook a maling and spinach yeah I have to eat more vegetables.
Well next week is my final exam so I gotta study so much. I just wanna take a shower but I can not resist my mind to write something LOL….heauheau
Guys, we are gonna watch NARNIA this friday. SO excited.
I really miss to hang out with my hommies, best friends, good friends and chat with my net pals.
Actually I wanna go back to indo to meet my family, friends, and net pals hehehe.
Of course I miss all of them and I wanna understand more about their life. Some of my friends and net pals that I know and care about, they just have relationship so CONGRATE guys…..feel happy for you.
Well if you are sad and dont have someone to talk to, you can still find me here, right.
I am so excited to go back to Indo to meet one of my friend but I think it is better for me to stay here for a while for private reason hehehe LOL. Anyway I think I dont clean the vegetables very clean…. it is like I ate something kindda hard and weird you know.
Anyway I gotta take a shower so See u later.

" Sometimes the last person on the earth you want to be with is the one person you can’t be without"

Today is 29 Nov, 2005. It has been 6 month for me to figure out what I wanna do and how to live in this era. Well today, one of my friend just lend me a book " THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE", I heard this book is very good. Well yeah, I used to lose my spirit and soul. It ain’t easy to point out where we can find our new spirit you know. Most of my friend see me as the strong person but I don’t think I am that strong you know. Actually sometimes I pretend to be strong because I dont want my friend worry about me. Anyway, life is goes on so if we are stuck up in the same spot we will be left behind right? Now, I am so happy come back from whistler even though I got a lot of bruises and all of the parts in my body are sore.
Jeezzz most of my friends, Korean, japanese or Eropian they are very expert in skiing and snowboarding, yeah I got fell behind but it is Ok since this is the first time for me to snowboard.
GOsh, I hope I can speak japanese and korean and chinese too so I can understand what they talk about.  After I finish read the book I will tell about the content of the book. Anyway, I dont know who often read my blog, I dont expect my friend to read my blog since I write the blog I only know two of my friends who read my blog. Now, I already choose to live differently and always take care something/someone which are so essential for me. Ready to go through to NEW ERA :  BETWEEN PAST AND FUTURE. And one more thing I really need to appreciate all of my friends. People thought that I have a lot of friends maybe it is true but I dont have many good friends, best friends and special friends. Reach NEW ERA with NEW PURPOSE, VIGOROUSITY, ATTITUDE and ENCOURAGEMENT.
December is coming I hope all of my friends will have a good time at that time.
Cheers,

Aloha y’all,
Thanksgiving is coming out, I hope you guys will have a great thanksgiving this year and don’t forget to leave me a turkey too.
Anyway, I am going to WHISTLER this week, it is a very famous SKI resort in CANADA.I am so nervous since I gotta lead 36 people for this trip. Well the good thing is that I got the discount for the trip since I am the co-leader for the trip.
Hopefully, there is nothing bad happen in the trip.
Well anywyay, I will continue to write something later on.
Adios,

The post below is written by one of my friends.

Tidak ada yang terlambat dalam mencintai
seseorang…
Saat kau benar-benar mencintai seseorang …
Walau kau terlambat menyadari namun itu
bukan akhir dari cerita cintamu..
karena, saat kau mulai menutup diri, dan
MENYERAH berarti barulah kau TERLAMBAT…
dan menjadi orang yang tak perlu lagi
diperhitungkan…!!

Merelakan..Melepaskan??

Kedua hal yang MENGHARUKAN saat-saat kau
mencintainya dengan segenap hatimu…
Kau benar- benar menawarkan perasaan
cintamu..
Hingga kau RELA MELEPASKANNYA jika ia
memang akan bahagia..
Seperti halnya..Lebih baik melihat orang kau
cintai TAK LAGI BERSAMA MU, dibanding kau
bersamanya dan membuatnya jenuh…
dan tak bahagia berada di sampingmu…

Saat kau menyadari semua tidaklah kejam
untukmu..Namun kau beruntung dapat
menyadari perasaannya…

Menyedihkan..??

Ya..menyedihkan itu tepat untukmu yang
menderita dalam percintaan..
Saat cintamu tak BERBALAS..atau orang kau
cintai telah BERKHIANAT…
Tapi kau bukan orang yang paling
menyedihkan…
Namun, Sadarilah..dia yang melukaimu lebih
menyedihkan lagi darimu…
Karna tanpa ia sadari…
ia MENYIA-NYIAKAN Mu yang telah sangat
mencintainya…

Salah Mencintai..??

Hanya dengan mencintai kau melihat dirinya
sangat sempurna..
Namun mencintai bukan suatu kebutuhan tapi
suatu PILIHAN..
Saat kau menganggap cinta itu bagai
KEBUTUHAN..!!
kau TAK AKAN RELA MELEPASKANNYA…
Kau hanya boleh MENYADARI DIA ADALAH
PILIHAN MU…
BUKAN SUATU KEBUTUHAN yang harus
memenuhi hidupmu…
Maka kau akan SAKIT dan TAK RELA bila kau
KEHILANGANNYA…

Cinta itu tidak selalu indah..
Seindah dongeng cinderella berakhir bahagia..
Atau romeo en juliet dgn kisahnya yang abadi.
..
Namun, kau bisa mencoba nya…
Namun saat kau tak berhasil menciptakan
cerita2 indah…
Kau hanya bisa MERELAKAN NYA…
Saat yang tepat kau akan temukan seseorang
yang lebih baik dan mempesona…
Karena dibalik semuanya CINTA TAK HARUS
MEMILIKI…
MAKA DENGAN SEKEDAR MENGAGUMINYA
SUDAH CUKUP UNTUK MU…

Hargai lah tiap kebersamaan yang dulu pernah
terjalin, ingatlah keindahan cinta itu saat
bersamamu kalau sudah pergi kamu akan
menyadari bahwa kamu kehilangan dia untuk
selamanya..

"If you love something…let it go, if it comes
back to you it was truly meant to be."

Goshhhh I am so hungry now, I just had dim sum with my friends 4 hours ago but I feel hungry right now LOL.
YEah, well I gotta study hard to the math class that I took since last time I took the math class two years ago. Well if you see people driving, you can see that some of them drive slowly and some of them drive very fast. It is like doing thing in this world too you know. Some people try hard to move very fast without looking the past, some people move slowly, learning something from the past but if they already understand the true meaning of it, they can be a better person in the future. Well in this life, we have a lot of thing to learn, learn learn and learn…..

Learn to reach the future, learn to make people happy, learn to love someone without granted, learn to forgive and forget, learn to be a better person, learn to fill this life with joy and laugh, yeah so many thing we have to learn right.

Sometimes, some people just wondering too if there is true love in this world, yeah we really want to find the mystery of true love. Well sometimes we can not expect to get answer from all of the question we had since we know that not all of the question has exact answer, just let it flow and let it be.
Well next week I am going to vancouver, hehehe. I should go there before I can not leave USA.
SOmetimes I just think why I make a blog, hahaha….well I knew that some of my american asian friends that they have xanga.
Probably because sometimes I don’t know how to express my mind and I assume that not many people read the blog or care about it hehehe.

YEah I think I have to stop writing, I gotta study for my exam and I need to eat to boost up my energy. Oh, yeah I used to think that I am NOTHING in this world but well I think we have to believe that we are ANYTHING for this world, right? ^^